And every time he wants more
I wonder about the girl before
Did she scream as loud as I did?
Did she collapse and cry and die inside?
Tears streaming from her eyes
Until her heart was dry
Was bitterness her new mantra?
An unwavering stoniness her anthem?
I do not think I could ever look her in the eye
I know exactly what she’d see in mine
She’d see the way he used to hold her hand
The life that they had planned
She’d see his arms tucked around her
With him, how she’d never flounder
The safety and the joy
The sarcastic and the coy
And then she’d see his arm on my shoulders
And the truth would hit her like a boulder
They were gone
The love they shared gone
Everything they had gone
I remember how that felt.